Painting for me is to find my inner world identification, and my painting is a story of me and my late mother. After my mother’s death I have been writing all my memories and thoughts over and over by using Korean consonants. These writings are unreadable but show the viewers perceiving and understanding of the state of my longing heart.
In the morning while I was on bed, half sleep and half awaken, I see abstract images of colors. The color is sensational and relate to my yearning state of mind. Despite unrealistic optical vision of color I try to depict that color on my painting because that color represent to my desiring heart. Therefore, the images are like nostalgic and show pain, sorrow, and loneliness in the journey of yearning for my late mother, the true love.
Also, facing blank paper is terrifying as a shaman accepts jinnee, and the process of painting is like a ritual for purifying myself to reach my inner most selfness.